-thoughts?-

just cant sleep well these days..
lot things playing in my mind and heart..

is it 'hunger'?
felt that i am so useless in doing things..
am hunger for knowledge
am hunger for money..
hunger to get better in managing things, thoughts, ability..

cant sleep and think well these days..
something grow in my heart and mind
"jealousy" & "greed"* worst enemy ever in everyone's' life..

felt so so so bad.. hate to hear everything bout ability..how good it will be..
i just dont have it and hunger for it..which i dun know how..frustrated with it

evil inner.. thoughts.. but i hardly do things
everytime, after the promise.. it will be empty..no action taken,resulting regret

i had lost something in life..once was perfect..
had lost some time..left behind...in memory..

negative me=) wish to learn, and be better..helpless indeed..future-phobia lol