-心态-

一直以来对生活或者学习，主要是学习

都不大去努力..因为自己的心态

害怕真正努力过后得不到想要的成绩，

心，会承受不了..

这种心态，是时候改变了..

不尝试，不知道

不再逃避

i can present well and i know i can, thats my confident and i will make it grow more in other places

-改-

熬了不少夜

追看“非诚勿扰”,看看不同的人，对生活不同的看法

也想了很多..22了，发现现在才改观

后悔的是以前不懂知识的好，知识的美

现在想补回好像身体不大好使 @@..

开始会想自己要的是什么，

梦想也慢慢的浮现，

只能加油了 o~(>_<)~o

-插曲-

她：宠坏晒..

他：就系宠住你..

她：哈？

他：（笑）没事..

巴士的声音遮盖了一切..这样就好

-放弃坚持？坚持放弃？-

怎么感觉两句都带着负面的意思呢？

其实真的搞懂很多东西了..但不管多么清醒都好，心..就是会想起

就算头脑多么理智，原来还是说服不了心

再给我点时间吧？ 说服自己

好的不一定要拥有..尽量完成开学前答应自己应该做的事

失去的，原来是一颗真挚的心...

After so many things..

at the end? you aren't the one..

wth i still thinking here..? thinking myself way too much important..lol

the longer time i know you..

the deeper i dun understand you..

FML..

-mind-

figure out i just messing up with my mind.. myself.. my heart..

keep caring about nonsense nia..(>///<)~~

其实，很多事情..真的, 怎样都无所谓了

-insomia-

LOL.. seriously just can't sleep WTH!!!

mind just so active and think and think and think nonsense lol ==

-pissed-

Ahh..!!!!

-shut-

I shld just shut everything down...

being nowhere lol.. better to get hidden =3=..

-mess-

i am not a good friend...just being that immature.. i am just messing everything

should know this earlier..:

世上三件事：一是“自己的事”，二是“别人的事”，三是“老天爷的事”。

烦恼来自：忘了“自己的事”，爱管“别人的事”，担心“老天爷的事”。

要开心很简单：做好“自己的事”，不管“别人的事”，别想“老天爷的事”。

-thoughts?-

just cant sleep well these days..
lot things playing in my mind and heart..

is it 'hunger'?
felt that i am so useless in doing things..
am hunger for knowledge
am hunger for money..
hunger to get better in managing things, thoughts, ability..

cant sleep and think well these days..
something grow in my heart and mind
"jealousy" & "greed"* worst enemy ever in everyone's' life..

felt so so so bad.. hate to hear everything bout ability..how good it will be..
i just dont have it and hunger for it..which i dun know how..frustrated with it

evil inner.. thoughts.. but i hardly do things
everytime, after the promise.. it will be empty..no action taken,resulting regret

i had lost something in life..once was perfect..
had lost some time..left behind...in memory..

negative me=) wish to learn, and be better..helpless indeed..future-phobia lol

-Worry-

DAMN WORRY NOW!!! xD

die liao die liao~~

-negativity-

Being thinking lots nonsenses these days.. how bad..

Tried to hide everything~ i am negative =)

失去了一种体贴..

-不吐不快-

最近怎么样..?还好吧?

把很多的心里话都收着...也不想说..

想了想,近期的我也没什么大不了。

好像把自己变得不认识了..

听到朋友们的事，是太久没联络了吗？就少了些什么..好想和你们喝茶谈天!!

自己也没什么好，好像变幼稚了~~

是习惯性撒娇了吗？=x

忘了怎么读书

忘了怎么认真

忘了好多事情

其实都不需要

我个人傻操心

做好本分就好？

昨天..心情不好~竟然想到，假期的时候，去学做面包蛋糕..o.O

不敢想象，作糕点的那个我..是梦吗？

看到你越来越好，有点欣慰开心

也是带动我的心，想寻找，那小小的梦

22岁了..还是在发牢骚..忘了认真是什么 >_< 惨~

期待这个礼拜天~也担心下个礼拜..末期考试了~2年了，LABUAN

好想说好多好多的东西..越来越不会表达了...

是否,真的要认真呢..好累人的事哦,认真这东西...你在哪‘？

还是把自己藏好吧~因为只有无聊时才想起自己的心..藏在哪里

好想大喊哦~~~！！！

how silly i am... lose like dog..

-Perfection?-

About perfect..?

if every single human being chasing perfection in their life time..?

Should i?

Being the same situation even everything u said, u wanna change, u wanna leave and behave better, away from hell.. Too bad, you just keep doing so.. returning to hell with the call..

If being perfect is the important thing..

Changes needed to be perfect..

I should change.. anger and guilt, mixed perfectly...

-drop-

drops into pieces...focus..

-suffocate-

suffocate..

-Lead?-

Not a good leader.. Sorry for the bad organize and everything..

even applied in behavior..sweat....

你的累，有谁懂？

-If-

If...

i changed?

will everythings change?

i am sure...

the answer?

not everything will change..

if... stop saying if...

its 200th post for this.. Congratz

-Tiring-

Tiring Days it will be..

-Hurts-

It hurts much.. Damn lot.. damn it

-Think?-

Should be knowing and clear about what's happening...

Don't think too much..

-CNY-

Rabbit year is here~

Many things should put aside or leave them at Tiger's year..

Yet~think of lots things that i shouldn't think bout..

Brain-washing~~should and shouldn't

Happy CNY everyone~let the past be and fight for the future~~

喜欢自己的那种隐瞒

也讨厌自己的不坦白=) That's me

-不会飞-

-铁人-

操劳过度？

被人传染？

发烧喉痛。

原来不是铁人...

-Happy BirthDay!!-

Happii BirthDay to you~=)

Great to see you smiling hehe

-诸葛神数-

　诸葛神数相传是三国时代刘备的军师诸葛亮所作，
诸葛神算的方法共三百八十四爻，谶语句法，长短不一，寓意深远，前途迷惘者占之，有茅塞顿开之感。斯可作为判断吉凶、决定进退之指南针。特别说明：无论输入简体中文还是繁体中文，笔画数均按繁体笔画数计算。载自网上。

学院里举办灯笼晚会，其中的诸葛神算让我上前去测测自己的事业与爱情运。

嗯。。等 7月 才能见真这两个占卜是否能验临吧~

7月..我等

-BE-

I can Act to be Strong..

-same-

Same mistake.. same things..

i am totally useless lol... cant even done it.. lol FMyself

-Tired-

End of few things and events~ then new things and events getting in..

Dun know since when kinda tired of having meetings.. Meetings.. I have alots meetings!!

Losing temper Losing patient.. just tired~ need hardwork haha...

can i dun be tat strong..? just for awhile..?

-The Day-

Incredible day i have today..

Sleepless for a day to work on my Family Day event.. and it pays!

Get an award of "Most Profitable HE Counter" for it.

The most happy thing is this, every hardwork, it pays.

Then lucky draw time.. Really related to luck and HE as well..

Without HE's selling, i wont get so many numbers and get these Grand Prizes!

1. Most Grand (Last prize): Cooling FAN!!

2. 2nd Grand: Table FAN!!!

3. 2 Hampers!!!

4. A puzzle!!

Total 5 prizes i won and i really supprise with it haha~

Then, the ExploreRace team, Our HE get 1st Prize!! xD Congratz!!!

The tiring works ended for this month, study coming now.. for this month..

Club events and activities will come soon.. its an impressive day i had today~

it just the starting

-More-

The more the time passed.. the more things i have to think..

Clearer and clearer.. 2011, i should focus in study and work.. 2011..

All the best guys..

it hurts much..